I’ve been spending a bit of time away from PR recently. Being home is difficult. So was being some of the places I went to visit. Sometimes, being in Vancouver is too. There are certain places that I am avoiding because it’s too painful. I need a breather before I go home and start dealing with my life again, so that’s what I’m trying to take right now. This doesn’t mean that I have been able to escape the reality of what happened; just that I am trying to give my brain a chance to process it in really tiny pieces because frankly, that’s all I can handle. I’m having a hard time even handling that.

Do not have any expectations of me right now. If I can get out of bed for a bit it is a good day. Sometimes I don’t; that’s when I appreciate my peeps who are able to climb in with me and tell me that it’s okay to react this way to such an unbelievably shitty situation.

I am not myself now, nor will I be for a while. I’m not sure who I am anymore.


5 thoughts on “Breather

  1. Leeah March 18, 2011 / 1:28 pm

    Wish I could crawl in with you….

  2. margand1 March 19, 2011 / 6:35 am

    I wish i could take some of the pain and deal with it for you.


  3. Connie March 19, 2011 / 11:45 am

    Kirstin, the way you grieve is your own, as individual and unique as you are. You need to do what “feels right” to you, and no one but you can feel that. As loving and well-meaning as people are, I hope that you are allowed the time and space you need to process.
    I know that you have a great support system of friends and family, just waiting for the word from you to help in any way. Lean on them, if you can, they want to help!
    If there were some magic words to ease your anguish, they’d have been said by now.
    My sincere wish is that you are able to find some comfort soon.
    Love Always,
    Auntie Connie

  4. s_kat March 19, 2011 / 7:56 pm

    will gladly crawl anytime and bring lattes xox

  5. Auntie Julie March 20, 2011 / 4:08 pm

    {{{{{{{Really Big Hugs}}}}}}}

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